Willingness to Change (For the Godly Woman)

We will never reach perfection on this side of Heaven, that however, does not give us an excuse to not grow. We must always be working on becoming more like Christ and living in the way God says a woman of faith should live.

I grew up in a Christian home, I went to church every Sunday. I participated in all the youth ministries; AWANAs, middle and high school youth groups, and college groups.I was even a small group leader in the middle school youth group after I graduated high school. I was a "good Christian" and I never once questioned God's authority in my life.

While I never openly rebelled against God's authority, I was born (and I still am) a sinner. And as it's so easy to do; I grew up really only concerned about myself. I didn't seek to know God's will and follow Him, I sought my own will and wanted God to bless it.

Fast forward to mid 2020, I've been married for 3 years, we have a 1.5 year old boy, and we are coming up on year four of owning our dog training business. Despite covid changing the world as we knew it, we were more busy than ever helping all these new dog owners with their crazy pups. I have everything I have ever dreamed of, yet I'm still not satisfied.

What then was I missing? God made it abundantly clear it was a life fully surrendered to Him. All the way up until this point I had been doing everything exclusively motivated by self desire. I soon realized that if I wanted to see a change in my life: my marriage, my kids, my home, etc. then I was going to have to change myself.

The verses in Titus 2:3-5 laid the groundwork for God's transforming work in my life:

"Older women likewise are to be reverent in behavior, not slanderers or slaves to much wine. They are to teach what is good, and so train the young women to love their husbands and children, to be self-controlled, pure, working at home, kind, and submissive to their own husbands, that the word of God may not be reviled." (ESV)

By doing a quick glance over the verse I could have easily claimed I did most of these things. But when I started to look deeper at it, through reading books and learning from Godly older women, I began to realize how I was falling short of the mark for each and every one of these charges.

When it comes to convictions from God, our hearts will have one of two reactions. We will either get upset and try to justify our actions, or we will be remorseful over the sin that has been brought to light, repenting and turning from it and with God's help. And we will continue to seek His instructions for our life. I am extremely thankful that when God convicted my heart, it brought about the reaction needed to make a change in my life, it has only been for the better. I have a daily prayer where I ask God to help me be a better wife, mother, homemaker and woman of God. I didn't (and sometimes I still don't) really know what that looks like. So I thank God He gave us the bible and Godly older women that give us examples and instructions on what becoming a godly woman truly looks like.